he loves to dream. he likes wondering about what could have been, should have been, and may have been. he loves looking at the night-sky - who knows, a shooting star may just fly past one day and he will be able to make his wish. his wish to be with you.

[[ Theonenonlyme ]]

nicholas
19
NVPS
CCHY , 1b 2/3/4G
YJC , P02 102 202!
28-02-1991
trying to be myself

[[ The Wishlist ]]

1.learn piano (: especially the piece ::melodies of life:: from FF9
2.get a doggie (:
3.to control my fianances
4.leave longer hair especiallyy my fringe (:
5.get a tatoo (: 'small one can lerhs but must be nice ``
6.study overseas!! vet degree (:
7.travel all around the world.especially new zealand, usa, australia and venice .
8.dye my hair maybe brown? haven tot of the colour yets
9.do one pull-up :X happening soon lerhs. i hope.
10.get a nice bronze tan (:
11.try out all the colours on my braces
12.get drunk? hahas it sounds fun :X
13.driving license
14.get a convertible car
...
15.give my first kiss to sumone special xDD

xmas is over!
im kinda feeling suan suna de feeling!
i kinda wan and dun wan xmas to come.
LOL!
i know i cant have both but..
now its over... im gonna to have to wait for next year.
i can feel that xmas is the only time when everyone's looking so forward to.
;D everyone is having that christmasy mood.
all waiting for the end of the year.
for a new beginning.
if only i could have one.
i wuld change myself..
now new year resolutions.
hmm~
did i achieve anything this year.
i dun think so!
sighs.
next year is just 1 whole year of ARMY totally!
i wonder if its gonna be fine.
im wondering whether i can pass ippt.
LOL!
i love yet hate xmas.
its means that im gonna feel sad again.
):
i know all good things have to end but.
i cant accept it.
it spoils the whole xmasy mood!
when orchard all lit up~
when everyone's embracing the spirit of giving.
when everyone is waiting for presents.
i'm tinking about the end of xmas. D;
even now. im still tinking about the end of next year's xmas!
OMG!
sighs.
i cant imagine the time when my section ords!
i'll be damn sad ):
can time stop just for me?

♥8:00 PM

coming to EPO made me kinda fatter D:
i've gained 5KG! like within 2 months. how wuld i ever survive.
i didn really eat more. but i tink i kinda exercised lesser.
imaginations will never take me anywhere.
just plain daydreaming is wad i do.
and i tink thats wad im best at.
LOL!
everyone got sumthing they are best at rights.
siighs.
well.
coming to this new place made me realize sumthing important.
humans are never simple.
even though i try to think they are.
they think im dumb. innocent and uber guillible.
I AM LIKE THIS!
i dun want people to keep taking advantage of me D:
or think that im dumb.
not saying anything doesnt mean i dun mind! D:
....................................................
people around me i know are like super fake.
backstabbing all around.
i wonder who is like real.
i just cant stop worrying that i'll say the wrong things
or make people not like me.
i dun wanna be hated ):
i dun wanna be seen as a burden to people.
i know im not gonna pass ippt. but im not doing anything
WADS WRONG WITH ME?!
):
I HATE MYSELF.
even 2sgts said de same thing.
everyone in my section pass.
except you...
i dunno whether they are trying to play reverse psychology on me or sumthing.
but its totally not working ):
........................................................
this few time i know that its kinda too late to regret stuff.
I;VE LOST MY BEST FRIENDS IN SEC SCHOOL
BECAUSE OF SOME DUMB QUARREL. and i know now its totally not worth it
even if i won that quarrel.
very sad to lose them. but its super weird to like patch up with them now.
after dunno how many years of not talking...
i hope that i'll be able to pass thru the 1 year 2 more months of NS!
i'll miss everyone in NS ):
i cant bear the feeling of separating again.
it hurts totally.

♥8:11 PM

this week was my official week into EPO!
well~~ i could say its tiring..
hahas! most of my duties now are still under studying people.
and learning the basics of 2IC & morning docu jobs!
which is like the most difficult ones.
i did one of each ... learnt almost everything :D
the next thing is just to put it to test.
the first time of my mounting...
i screwed up quite a bit.
and im uber guilty for cuz-ing more trouble for people D:
monday will be my third duty.
will become the 2IC.
this time ... by myself !!!
OMG! i seriously scared sumthing bad will happen.
i dun have the confidence that i'll be able to do it.
):
everyone says they will be helping me.
and i can ask if im in doubt.
i know i will...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
arghh
why am i having this sad feeling again...
):
i keep looking out of my window.
at they sky...
which means i've loads on my mind.
and listening to sad songs doesnt help ):
but im still doing that -.-
maybe all i need is someone to confide to.
someone that i'll be able to rely on.
someone who can gimme a nice big hug no matter what (:

♥12:13 PM

LYRICS:
REGINA SPEKTOR- THE CALL
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye...

<3

♥10:38 PM

very long lerhs! loads to write about...
been posted to new sub-unit le!
EPO(escort & processing office)!
im gonna spend my 1 year 4 months here!
omg~ its sounds like a long time lehs...
ehhh been hoping a lot to come over here!
people here are nice and the environment is awesome too:D
i tink its great! but seniors said i haven seen the worst...
welll.!
im sure i can make it! after so long!
watching dramas isnt a nice way to spend my leave D:
make me tink of things that are so impossible!
imagining stuff again!
moving further away from reality! *ITS BAD! FOR ME*
sumhow i feel that i've been drifting far away from my frens.
all the relationships i've made seem so fake.
arghh. for some reason i kinda get this tiny tinge
of lonliness again.
i tink too much
i dream too much
i imagine too much
of impossible things
that i really hope could be possible.
holding on to a dream that might never come true.
it may not mean much but i tink its the only form
of motivation for me to carry on in life.
since now i ask i myself.
what am i fighting for...?
why am i on this planet earth...?
am i to live or to survive....
i hope one day i would be able to say
im on planet earth to live and not to survive.

♥7:52 AM

hmmm im back after a long time of posting already.
!!!
a great decision that i made that day didnt really happen.
cuz of my indecisivness...
thats a good thing :D n im still alive.
talk to me 1 week ago...
the only words i wuld say was...
'huh?'... *with a blur & extremly depressed look.
but noW! i much much better.
well, most of it had to do with army.
D:
it sucks.
PREEVIOUS LIFE:
SUCKED TO THE MAX! D:
ALMOST DIDNT MAKE IT!
SIIGHS
HAD MORE MONEY!
PRESENT LIFE:
MONEYLESS!
no money lerhs! im spending so so much everytime.
siighs.
mostly or almost everything on food...
each meal almost cost like 30 plus???!?!
how to survive hor.
plus now.
no meals indented.
GG!
hahas...
trying to save until pay day! 1 more week :D
omg...
but im gonna have MARCHE with anna this week again!
lols.
diee~~~~~
life is now 8-5 daily. with nth much to do.
cuz im understudying people.
so....
its slack as u can call it.
but another 2 more weeks and its a different story altogether.
*I MISS MP BASIC*
most likely cuz there's a lot of quebec peeps!
now...
only im left...
de rest are not really here!
ARGHH~
1 year 5 more months to GO!

♥5:55 PM

yoo~~!
POP on tuesday lehs! its gonna be here soon already! :D
kinda happy and sad at de same time.
mostly cuz im gonna miss my frens!
and also anxious to see how my new unit is like!
arghh!!!
this week although 4 days!
kinda slow!
gotta nites OUT! woots~~
hahas!
we practically didnt do much except for chem def!
zOMG?!
that i almost died!
lol
not literally...
but my face nose eyes are like burning!!!
super spicy those kind!
...
nvr going in that chamber place again..
!!!!
well HARI RAYA! yeppies
got another day off...
went to play mahjong 3 peeps with stan & daniel
didnt win much. only a dollar after like 6 hours of playing
lols.
its like -.-
then went to vivo to meet up with many many peeps!
but kinda sad cuz i went late.
then also madde them wait.
then all so early go back de..
arghh~!~!~!~! cant believe it..
VIVO was CROOOWWWDED!
almost every restaurant was fully packed.
wanted marche de...
but it was a 2 hours queue....
lols
all pangseh me and mg left nia.
nvms la.
hahas.
today....
went to MARCHE! finally.
with anna!
:D
ate super a lot.
SUPER A LOT!
all de nice stuff! we tried almost everything...
:x
de rosti was OMGGOSH! nice until nth to describe.
lol.
de CREPE also....
must go again!
very few people i can go out with and spend so much together!
and dun really care :x
can also guess de price was also very nice...
but still below my expectation.
its 80 bucks.
i tot its 100... LOL! :x
hehE!
oh yeah...
my no.3....
i SCARED i cant fit into it!
im getting fatter already?!?!
yeahhh.
later do marching it tear....
zomg.

♥9:58 PM

[[ Magical Ones ]]

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[[ loving words ]]