im giving smiling a final chance :D

The Dreamer

he loves to dream. he likes wondering about what could have been, should have been, and may have been. he loves looking at the night-sky - who knows, a shooting star may just fly past one day and he will be able to make his wish. his wish to be with you.

[[ Theonenonlyme ]]

nicholas
19
NVPS
CCHY , 1b 2/3/4G
YJC , P02 102 202!
28-02-1991
trying to be myself

[[ The Wishlist ]]

1.learn piano (: especially the piece ::melodies of life:: from FF9
2.get a doggie (:
3.to control my fianances
4.leave longer hair especiallyy my fringe (:
5.get a tatoo (: 'small one can lerhs but must be nice ``
6.study overseas!! vet degree (:
7.travel all around the world.especially new zealand, usa, australia and venice .
8.~~dye my hair maybe brown? haven tot of the colour yets~~
9.~~do one pull-up :X happening soon lerhs. i hope.~~
10.~~get a nice bronze tan (:~~
11.~~try out all the colours on my braces~~
12.get drunk? hahas it sounds fun :X
13.driving license
14.get a convertible car
...
15.give my first kiss to sumone special xDD

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

hehe

im back

posting again

today super tired

coz today i got attached to a vet so

its more funner than usual

i got to see how the vet works and

clean up poo and stuff

1st time in like 1 week plus

LOL!

haha

so dots rights

hehe

well today was lucky and unlucky u could say

went with de vets

and guess wad

i went to see a LIVE giving birth

lol

was like helping them do it

it was a thamin...

sort of a deer

its like they shot it and sedated it

then urghh

gross

lol

de vet went into the er herm of the deer

summore de deer still not unconcious yet

i dunno how pain it is

but it kept whining

but

sadly

the baby is dead already

two days ago died

hmm..

then cant ome out naturally

so they used cutting it..

yep

and it was like alredy starting to decompose

sad rights..

i nvr take any pic

too sad le

:'(

but after that we went to see the komodo dragon..

and the anteaters just minor checks on them

thats like about all we did

its kinda cool

thats wad i wanna do next time

LOL!

♥8:56 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008

hehe

feel like blogging already muahaha

today quite slacky in wap

lol

was playing monop[]ly

a bit no life rights

but its seriously too boring

then u noe.

haix

its called .

生在福中不知福.

i think should be correct ba..

lol

sounds a bit like me

haha

but its about those that just went for de keeper attachment from YJ

zzz they are like so much more whinier than me

they like 1st day already complaining

chop meat la

so dirty la

cut fruits la

walk so much la

-.-

then wad about us?~!?!

we wanted that jobs u noe

u like STOLE them from us

and now say its not nice

we cant even have de opportunity to try

so u all better make full use of it k

if not i'll murder u all

then we leh

do 6 days de survey also nvr complain.

spolit brats

LOL!

nvm i dun wanna insult them any more le

waste my effort typing

hehe

talk about something more nicer

was like thinking wad to buy for our mentor

they all very nice

got 1 is john and another lucia

they let us take our volunteer pass back

and we got flexi-hours

LOL

better than de rest

so i and joan went to amk hub

i tot that amk like nth one

but when i went up

its like still alrites

much better than np.

lol

so we decided very long

becoz we went shopping for our stuff too

LOL!

and bought food..

we bought a massaging cushion and a shitty cup

haha

quite nice lorrs

hehe

although we spent a little off our budget =x

i tink i spent too much again~

haha

alrites im off already

NITES!!!

♥9:28 PM

Friday, November 21, 2008

...

haha

after 1 week of workin for no pay

how do i feel

hmm

i feel that its quite worth it

at least i got de experience

and i get to see many many people

from many many countries

all de ang mohs.

and those from africa..

europe etc etc

woah

just knew that de zoo so popular

some came back after 8 to 10 years

saying that they like it here so they came back

so lucky to meet them again

so what was i doing there>??

i was doing....

SURVEYS!

lol

so got to talk a lot

and suntan a lot

lol

getting a bit darker

and stand for long periods of time'

zzz

at least 4 hours daily

stand until leg pain

lol

hmm

so this week

6 AM wake up

6 PM reach home

lol

sad rites

haha

so time just passed so fast!

hmm.

sian-ed

cant do any training or anything

maybe de weekend ba

dunno got time nots

got loads to do

i need to see doc too

sian

next week will be better

i get to be attached to some other stations

maybe a vet?

or the exhibits

hehe

much funner

haha

so im waiting

and im scared.

i dunno wad to do~

someone tell me...

pl0x?

♥9:16 PM

Thursday, November 06, 2008

...

tml's gonna be once in a lifetime its

OP exam lol

hmm im gonna be very nervous le,.

haix everytime always like that

b4 big big thing always got sick de

...

now also got a bit of fever...

ot parts of my script haven memorise yet

haix haix

so much then tml dunno how lehx.

nervous .

but still worrying

A LOT!

zzz

today did a bit of pull -ups haha

thx to 102 :D

the guys and gals for their support.

i did around like 10 plus

LOL

but its assisted thats why have to thank them

HAHA

hmm

i was thinking now im the only one who cant do it.

feeling sad .

sadder

saddest

lousy

lousier

lousiest!!!!

...

i dunno what will happen

maybe got miracle.

haha

maybe im just bluffing myself.

blurring the reality and fate.

...

just dun wanna face it.

although it will come sooner or later.

its like there's one way to avoid it .

just slit it'll flow away with the red liquid

isn't that easier?

♥9:42 PM

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

...

i decided to blog again le

coz i got really too much to say.

i think i keep inside for very long le

no one to share with no one to talk to.

i only can type it all out here

...

this few days after chinese ...

OP de day after tml...

then haixx

dunno how to feel

im not worried about promo.

but rather about NAPFA.

its kinda weird.

but...

haix

i noe im like beyond hopeless..

so thats why must worry.

its like so so so bad.'

sososososososos~~~~

BAD!

so gonna hols soon

must train

but i dunno i got de determination a not.

just like he said.

u always give up halfway.

u dun see the results so u 放弃.

hmm.

maybe he's right

after so long no ever told me that

i didnt know until he said that.

so i was wondering.

hmm~~~

am i such a person.

de 1st person that made me face reality ?

and the 1st to be truthful to me?

...

i wonder

also NApfa coming

worrying~~~

emo~~

sad~

wad should i do?

♥9:54 PM