im giving smiling a final chance :D

Friday, January 30, 2009

hii

i writing agains hahas today not much to do so got time to add some pics

but its mostly me

((:

muahahas

today talking about de class tee.

hmm quite interesting n got some nice nice pics

upload later bahs

drawn by kai n me

hahas

so was discussing loads of stuff

whether wanna tee or jacket

wad design and stuff like that

lols

but

sadly de class owes money to a lot of people

lols

esp mr wong :X

die...

LOL!

and summore its not little its a LOT!!

zzz

so i dunno whether got money to pay for de tee a nots

hmm

so haish

sian-ed a lots

hahas

tml freaking cip

bleh waste time only

siighx

also...

feeling guilty this week nvr go gym lehs

then wanted go tml de

but i remembered i going cuzzie house tml

bleh...

stm lerhs

lols

hahas kk got some pic of ME~! lols

was zi-lianing again :X

but its cny so cannot blame me

its me its de second day i was going out.

so i wore shirt n jeans and was taking pic

then wearing de jeans a bit like tight those kind

dunno look weird a nots

me in my room ~!

was changed and waiting for my mum
so take more pics ((:

this taken on de 1st day when i was at my ah ma de house there (:
LOLS~!

finally i saw this super cute de PIC ((:
its pon and zi again
can say im their fan bahs
lols
and its
advanced ...
nites
&

i may not be the same

♥9:40 PM

Thursday, January 29, 2009

haha

BLEHS

happy chinese NEW year everyone

hahas i must say this year feels different lehx

not becuz of de crisis thing but also about things that are changing

coming

its like not de same anymore

its like having this feeling of not wanting to grow up

hahas

I WANNA STAY YOUNG

lols

but its a fact

u cant stop time

its like hmm

wads after a lvls.

wads after uni

its too much to handle

just imagining all these stuff

haish~

zzz

okay about de funner part

lols

i got less angbao than ytd

but i dunno about de moneys

lols

and this new year was spent well

gatheringg with my cuzzies (:

and also playing madly with them

lols

lucky i nvr gambled if not sure lose my angbao money lerhs

muahaha

had steamboat for like 3 days continously

and crap

it tastes like sian-ed

haha

cuz everyday also eating de same ol' things

bleh

hahas

then obviously with all de excitement going on

i didnt touch my hw at all lol

hahas

but seem to like completed it lerhs

so nvms

then

everyday also stay back in skuu til late de

like 5 plus 6 ...

tml worse until like 7 plus 8?

sian-ed

saturday got cip

i wanna sleep more lehs

but no time

today felt lazy and took cab back from skuu

my house in yishun.

skuu also yishun

and it costs 6 bucks plus

zzz

a bit ex..

lols

but tired le so come back early bahs

...

l nvr wanna walk al0n3

♥7:03 PM

Saturday, January 24, 2009

...

hmm~

wondering

thinking

i wish i had a clone

really

ytd i thought deeply

eeverytime i had to make a choice.

i end up being too indecisive.

i dun know why

but.

i take a long time...

a choice has its cost.

sumtimes

de cost of choosing one thing over another so similar

that i'd rather have both or give both up

just not to hurt anyone.

a few times

de matter has became more prominent lerh

...

just happened around 2 times this week

i hate to reject sumone.

even if its sumting more.

im willing to do

if u were to feel better..

giving an eg would be better...

choose between ur wife and mum...

but its not that exaggeratedd

yupps

that kind of choice

its hard

i wish there was another of me

im sorry

really sorry

♥9:19 PM

WHOO~~!~!~!~!
im blogging again
hahas now pace start to slow down lerhs
cuz it CNY ((:
not so many hw liaox
ytd was cny celebrations
still need go skuu lorrs
and still got studies
BOO~~~
until 12 plus
summore i got performance .
lols
i tot its stupid lehs
i wanted to go back early but.
haish
went back at like 6 plus
lol
i tot de celebrations very boring but it turned out quite FUN!
hahaz
singing and a calligraphy competition
based on classes de.
our class got not much talent
so everyone de word looks weird de
LOL!!
super funny
so we decided not to write lerhs
we decided.
TO PAINT EACH OTHER BLACK!
lolls
we started to take ink and de brush and play here play there
like our class is only de siao one there
like primary skuu children
summore guna saw us
lol
but its fun ((:
went quite high lerhs
kinda sad that its this year graduating soon lerhs
i got that suan suan de feeling now
sobs
cant imagine how it'll be like without all my frens
dun wanna tink too much
must treasure de time we have together
its not long lerhs

i have to say i MISS 102'o8/202'o9

♥12:34 PM

Sunday, January 18, 2009

just had lunch with my ah ma i haven seen for very long

hahas

shes so so happy to see me lol

me too ((:

and we went to thomsom plaza for lunch

i haven go there for very long already.

knew that its renovated

tot it will be newer so i anticipated a lot

when i entered...

wtf

its like de same old thing

-.-

only de outside change nia

hahas

went to peach garden.

not to have peach

but dim sum ((:

at loads of it and am super full

then my ah ma bought sweet potato for me

ooo its sweet alrights

very.

its called di gua or sumting

and before she left

she gave me a big MUACK

in de public..

lol

but its alright

my mum got it too :X

hahas

its cny soon gonna get to see her again

ooo cny is coming already hahas ((:

im getting more ang bao alreadys hahas

but dunno will become richer a nots lol

looking forward to CNY

ANG BAOS !~!~!

♥10:31 AM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

"how big the world'but friends always together somehow."-pisey

when i saw this quote from my cambodian friend
i super super
miss them loads
i have a lot to talk to them to ask them
i can still remember their language and i
love them lots!~!~!
its very meaning quote, showing that even they can say such things
although they do not have much education.
it shows that they said it from de bottom of their hearts ((:

♥9:00 PM

Friday, January 16, 2009

i am like so super uber tired

zzz

lol

its de first week only and im dead tired

almost like died

hahas

all months of hols and resting just was used up by this week

lol

this year is gonna be very very long

this week was very long

it felt like a month or so.

lol

i dunno why

but de time is draggy and

my sleep is like so little

close my eyes onyl

then wake up and say

must go skuu already arh

LOL!

hmm its gonna be cny soon

lol

and soon it'll be orientation lerhs...

sien-ed

hahas

and then etc..

im scared.

i dunno.

have no confidence at all

i dunno whether im gonna make it or nots

but im gonna DO my best (:

training starts next tues.wed.thurs.

i hope with all these i can get a s-i-l--v-e-r...

♥10:10 PM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

the cuzzies and me ((: love ya loads

that was me having longer hair zzz

so i took more pics of myself (: hahas

and one of my lion too (: it looks cute so i snapped a pic of it

de reunion dinner~~

my AH MA !!~~

fave dessert (: its made of yam

my cuz and me (: hahas

♥9:34 PM

hmm...

today not much to do hahas

got some things to share (;

recently, my class have shrunk in size

and means thats sumone did not join us up into J2

however, i would like to wish her loads of luck

and hope she will make it next year

and although u are not here with us u will always be part

of 102/202 (:

we love and miss u lots

good luck ahead

also napfa is carried forward this year

siighx

but i dunno

no confidence lehx

but got some people still care bout me and ask me loads of stuff

like to train more (:

and to do more...

i dunno but i'll do my best alrights

p.e is tml i dunno wad will we do

running?

hmm~

good luck for me?

zzz

reached back home and eat dinner

ate nyonya bak chang

not very nice

but super filling

...

then still have to eat dinner with my ah ma

she loving~~ although she eat already

she still sit down beside me and pei me eat

and she keep looking at me

and keep reminding me to eat this and that (:

although its naggy

but i know she cares

hahas

and today i still feel like a small kidd with my ah ma

got this kind of feeling that im still childish and young

haha

i wanna that feeling (:

ah ma wan sui

♥8:44 PM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

bleh bleh.~

these few days dunno can update so much marhs

skuu just started ytd.

and its already loaded with like so much stuff.

zzz

1st day with my gp teacher

and already got essay today must pass up de

-.-

wtf.

today also got gp

no wonder people scare of gp

its not de subject

its de cher

that guna (cher name) fault

wasted my money.

siighs

make all of us spent like 20+ ...

ZZZ

and more coming~

hahas

i still got loads haven do.

dunno i can finish mahs

haish

stressed or just complaining?

我宁愿不要让你知道我喜欢的人是你。

♥9:46 PM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

well

another sad thing happened again

i was watching this doctor show on channel u

then it was an op.

a live surgery

so it was quite sad larx

cuz de patient died

she's a old granny.

but she could be saved but that surgeon was like

useless.. panicing there

and then they could not help also.

when another prof came in

he said to use another method to save de patient

but.

de other nurses and docs were like

standing there saying that its useless

wtf larx.

its so sad

they didnt even bother to do anything

some professionals they are

...

so was quite sad

and im determined.

that next time when i do an op

i'll not go out and regret or say sorry

i wanna them to live.

that's that.

♥9:03 PM

im like already on de verge of dying already

from copying

and then my farking mum came in

wtf

she like keep nagging and messing with my stuff

so i screamed at her

and she sreamed back

so it went on and on~~

freaking bitch

she said my room has too much rubbish

so wad does her cupboard has gold is it?

all her clothes all got algae le ahs

keep so long

wtf

she dared me to throw away everything after she's back from de doc

ok i will f her

my mood is already all de way down

and down u come bustard me all these stuff

u think i wun do is it?

im just gonna do it right now .

everything's gonna go nothing will be left i tell u.

♥10:29 AM

...

today again

woke up with a hell lots of grumpiness and unhapiines

got loads of attitude today.

today was no bertter than ytd .

its just one whole lot of fraking copying de maths hw i got from my fren ytd

its a freaking long 102 questions

and my handwriting begin to suck at de 1st question waasting just 31 pages of foolscap.

for just to make de teachers happy

well

since they are gonna give us hell during the hols

lemme just give them wad they deserve

the same ol' attitude

and de farking hanwriting

lets see how they feel

i just feel so insultive today.

anyways.

i copied only like 19 of them and my hand is hurting like hell.

freak man.

i dun tink de teacher can see my handwriting and they wun even bother looking at

them, they will only put a stamp at de back.

"checked"

thats all we get for doing so much

so wads the use of doing it in de 1st place

freaking hell loads of crap in these teachers brain

i dunno how they graduated

and they nagg so much too.

lemme continue.

i feel like giving them de phoyocopied one but

im afraid that might get my fren into trouble

so id rather be scolded.

for bad han writing

and if they are gonna ask me to redo again

freaking hell NO~!

♥9:52 AM

Friday, January 09, 2009

...

zzz today was one of the suckiest day.

WTF

yj open is today.

but sadly so is the other 3 jc

and de 5 polys...

obviously.

ours suck to the core

cuz like no one turned up.

-.-

i tink the people in de skuu was more than those who came

lol

its sucky

wasted our time there

planning...

and practising lorrs

f-it.

wasted my whole day.

from 8 plus to 4 plus.

we had 3 miserable performances.

and i tink we were playing it to de walls or plants

cuzit was practically empty..

de last one was de worsst.

we couldnt cancel it cuz de P

was there..

so de teacher very hum ji de mahs.

say must play -.-

and summore play nicer if not will lose face

wth.

she already got no face to lose le lorrs

her reputation suck too.

summore.

she lectured us about this and that and nagged

worse than an old haggy b!tch~

and she like suan me in front of senior say wad

i keep not coming de

u know why i dun wanna come de mahs

becuz i have to face a foooking betch~

i think thats not only wad i tink but many too.

farrk it ):

i know there's vulgar stuff

but its the only words to describe it

♥4:53 PM

Thursday, January 08, 2009

isn't it just beautiful

i wanna be there next time

i'll visit all the very nice places on earth

simply lovely

♥3:39 PM

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

im back (:

well wad do u know.

the moment i came back..

piles of hW are like

staring right in my faCE

WTF!

still haven touched most of them.

lemme see i still can remember how to do.

1+1=....five?

or is it eleven?

...

loll

oh i know le 1+1=田

see i soo smart (:

am i going staart on them now? or just

copy them

LOL!!

i know i shouldn't copy.

but i do that everyyear (:
so~~~

muahahah =x

i remember there's like 1 phrase like

there are somethings better not known..

sumthing like that hahas

well i kinda tink its very true (:

♥1:28 PM

omg..

im late

im LATE

lol

late for my dental appointment lerhs

zzz

wondering how i still got de time to blog before im going

aniways still late wads so nvm

hahas

its like so early larx.

10.15...

make me chiong like dunno wad like that.

alrights

later then post if not i really will die le.

cyas

♥8:38 AM

Monday, January 05, 2009

hahas

cute pic rights

but its not the cute im feeling rights now.

look at the words...

its very very very sad rights.

im feeling much worse than that.

its like.

what if i dun have a teddy...

there's nothing that i have.

just feeling kinda low these few days .

to add-on

watching xiao niang re was very saddening

esp the part with yuzhu in it.

...

with the skuu coming backk.

and loads of stuff to do.

its like all de stress back

more than ever.

its worse..

i dun know when i can take it til.

i feel like crying sumtimes.

but its hard to find a shoulder to cry on ):

~~~~~~~~~

fantasizing about it

dreaming

thats all i wanna do.

hate reality.

fcuK it.

thats why...

♥10:08 PM

Saturday, January 03, 2009

these few days have been like emo-ing..

haha maybe just came back from chalet nia.

then going to have to face school and reality once more ...

still playing ahaha:X

and missed my dental appointment today cuz i forgot..

zzz my memory getting worse le.

so today wanted to do hw de but

just remembered de nice vid kh showed me

:D so i go find online

then spent almost half a day see-ing all de art pieces

its about Pon&Zi

its kinda cute and emo :]

and i found more pics also on de net.

this pic was kinda nice so i put it up.

i tink its a very nice drawing

super realistic.,

also i found a funny one.
:D a guy talking to a teddy.
it has loads of meaning behind it.

AND lastly.
one pic :)
this pic of all i saw..
i almost cried lol.
i dunno why but like i was gonna cry soon le.
its just very sad. take a look.

i need someone who will love me as much as i love that someone.

♥12:30 PM