im giving smiling a final chance :D

Saturday, February 28, 2009

...

hahas at least i dun get this lonely feeling animore

i dunno whether im getting high or wads

LOL~!~!~!

my face turned quite red when i was like drinking

cuz my aunt 'training' me to drink

hahas

quite okays haven drunk

drank 2 cups of wine

and 1 cup of beer (:

she say dun mix when drinking cuz will easy drunk

but i mix still haven drunk

lols

but kinda hot when drinkiing nia

got some pics

very long nvr upload lerhs

see bahs

wahaha this is my dinner (: called delivery worrs

hahas yeah xD

my dad bought this milo

its kinda cute cuz its small than usual worr (:

this is me after drinking quite red rights

LOL my mum say i become lobster

wahahaha

drank some of this lols

legally bought xD

but actually i feel like this de
i really sleepy after that drinks
lols must train more

and i got thi svery nice

CAKE ((:

yummy

its super nice lorrs ((:

strawberrys cheeseCAKE

saliva all come out lerhs

i cant tahan already

needa sleep lerhs

lols

nites

sweet dreams to YOU n ME (:

♥10:41 PM

lastyearicried
thisyearthesamethinghappened.

♥11:35 AM

Friday, February 27, 2009

...

these few days have been like kinda not very

smoothsailing like that

just same as ever loads of stuff to do...

and homework and stuff is coming in like mountains

also napfa and the block test is coming soon

its like nearing very fast...

i really dunno wad to do

my stations although improve lerhs

but still not good enough

and now its 8 weeks

i tried to tell myself its kinda ok since i will be more familiar

but it doesnt seem to work

haish

my dad saying ...

mum also...

i just feel pressured a lot of it

i also get very irritated easily also.

i feel grumpy and short tempered

i wanna tell people that if u dun wanna a scolding from

me better stay far away from me

but its like im 忍-ing.

so its kinda diff for me

...

so i rather not talk

and its better in case i hurt anyone.

i tink i need rest

maybe a long night of sleep will do...

tml is sumday special

i hope it will turn out well

lemme have good memories of it

♥9:43 PM

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

just a long long time lehs

since i stared outside the window of my room

when the sun is gonna set soon

its just the time where the colour of the sky goes bluish orange

quite a nice sight

and many many birds are flocking round

they looked so carefree and can fly almost anywhere

even to other countries

a beautiful scenery

its nature (:

love it...

but everytime when i do that

i always end up thinking a lot

and coming up with questions that cant be answered

thinking why cant my life be as carefree as the birds

what if i was born in another country

will life be easier or less stressful and competitive

will it be simple?

little questions like this really set me pondering on

why the only thing i do is study

is that the route to be happy

can one be contented with just studying alone

and getting a job in the future to settle down

these questions i wanna have the answers

sometimes i really feel like being born in another place

experience something totally new and different

i just spend my time imagining lots of stuff

thinking...wondering

but its something that i may never experience ever

that not reality

today theres esp and then de mp ms lee

was talking about how helping people

and meeting loads of people with different backgrounds

it sounded kinda cool and interesting

i again wondered...

how will it be like ....

wondering...

it just never ends does it...

♥7:29 PM

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

haish

just had lots of stuff to do recently

esp the HW its super a lot

...

ytd went to watch movie after skuu

benjamin button

its like ok larx but kinda draggy and boring

its about de life de so i kinda bored lerhs

LOL~!

felt that i wasted my time there only.

zzz

lols i know its kinda bad but its true

should have done my hw

and ytd feeling kinda not well already

so today got fever and lots of other illness

lols

so nvr go skool..

siighx

but also not resting cuz too much things to do

so must go and do haish

now chioinging lols

i beteer go back to reading

n gonna see doctor laters.

♥11:21 AM

Saturday, February 14, 2009

...

hmm

today's valentine's day...

lols

its a time for many to get together and..

its for couples bascially and frens

haish

its another valentine day spent alone again

i wonder when i will spend it with sumone special...

zzz

it gonna be long

real long

``````````````````````

real tired

i dunno

can i just let go of everything

to run away from reality?

♥10:10 PM

Thursday, February 12, 2009

not a very pleasant news i heard from my dad tonite

haish

its sumthing i dread i lot

its about ns

those who cannot get at least silver must go for extended 8 weeks training

which is like 2 months

wtf?

haiz

i really dunno

napfa is just around the corner

its like 1 and a half months time only

die die die

i dunno

but i tink maybe de pull-up still ok

but i very scare of running and standing broad jumps

esp jump

i fail by 50cm leh

its a lot

i dunno wad miracle will happen to help me

sian

im like gonna start training more now

i hope a can get silver

if not at least a bronze

i'll be quite happy

cuz i haven pass since pri skool

lol

````````````````````````

its over le

its not as bad as i expected it to be leh

have to thank joan

for listening to be and de advice

hahas

promise never to happen again

regrets~

you`

♥8:41 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

just wouldnt wanna say much

but today is not a nice day

gotta say it sucks'

i didnt keep my word

i was emo-ing

and this time its serious

haish

real bad

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hmm

i feel regretful

although it maybe my fault

i hope that u all will be more sensitive

i dunno how it'll turn out

it may be de turning point

where we dun talk

or it may just be awkward talking

or it may be better ...

but im doubtful of de latter

zzz

i just hope that tml will be a good day.

pray everything goes well

quarrelsareinevitableinfrenships

♥8:25 PM

Monday, February 09, 2009

heys

((:

smile more hahas

thats wad i've been tryiing to do

lols

and i tink im doing it better lerhs

but it seems that today was kinda sadded

cuz today im not emo

its tired

plain tired

ZZZ

sian

super sian lorrs

hmm

although guna and wen nvr come

and got "free 4 hours"

its still not free

cuz still needa do hw

lols

then tml guna not coming

yipppee

hahas

i just realised

saturday is 14th FEB

valentine's day

i nvr spent my valentine with anione i like before

lols

so i dun tink it will be any different this year

sobs and sadly

and when i realised 14th is on saturday

means...

13th is on FRIDAY

its supposed to be bad luck

or its superstition bahs

lols

hope nth bad happens

pray and

SMILE

cheeze

♥9:51 PM

Saturday, February 07, 2009

backs

after a long day of cip and ytd of shitty ushering

lols

ushering was really crap except for de part when i spent like

20 mins plus talking to a parent about yj and de other stuffs

its not very irritating and its quite a pleasure leh

hahas

talking a lot to her

and she talked a lot too

her son is in 112 then born in germany

nvr take MT

wth

i also wanna :X

hehes

then got pple see me talk so long

say i got kou cai

lols

err thats de good way of saying

de bad way is talkative

((:

de rest of ushering is crap

really

then today cip also

sucha weird timing at like 1pm..

zzz

wtf

waste my whole day only

superbly boring

i hope i can finish my hw by monday

still got newspaper articles haven do

sian

and more~!

wths

haish

i'll try to be happy

((:

ofwantingu

♥10:12 PM

Friday, February 06, 2009

hmm``

just wondering if i spreaded that kinda emo-ing disease leh

zzz

seems like some pple around me are going thru

some rough times

esp when they tink too much about stuff..

like me also tink too much

so suggestion

dun tink lerh ((:

do more stuff to distract urself or sumting

LOL!

speaking from experience

hehes

and try to smile and remain positive more

it'll be good and u also dun influence ur frens to go emo wiff u

haha

also pple wun say u emo le

just cheer up

like me

i did it today ((:

only maybe like 10 mins emo-ing only

```````````````````````````

today ushering was not bad

i did my part

i convinced a parent to bring their child to our skuu

hurray

lols

although i spent around 2o mins talking

but its worth it

im sharing my personal experience with sumone

and i kinda find that de skuu is not that bad after all

in some areas i mean

lols

i only brought ike 2 parents in

cuz i spent a long time talking to one of them

((:

and she's very friendly too

lols

but de rest of de time i was spending with my co frens

and also with james talking

people was like super high there larx

but sadly i cant go that high unless im drunk

hehes

kinda miss de PAE days i had and de peeps also

misses

♥10:11 PM

Thursday, February 05, 2009

hmm

today wasnt such a bad day after all

((:

hahas

i said to myself ytd that i'll be happier today

and i am

lols

i tot i will be in a bad mood de cuz i quarrelled with my bro

but after coming to skuu

my anger like vanished le

cuz of frens and peeps to talk to

so i become more cheerful today except for

few occasional times

like after lunch de a while

and after physics

maybe too tired bahs so cant control le

so became a little too emo-ish

LOL

but i dun think it'll happen tml

hehes

i hope so

again

ugavemethat

♥9:26 PM

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

hmm
those who noticed me recently know that im kinda low

and emo these few days

also i am not myself.

but yepps

im sorry ):

i wun be like that again ...

i hope so ((:

and i'll do my best to cheer up

i keep looking at de negative part of life

so maybe if i look more

i'll see de positive part ((:

hahas

i'll be happy

TML...

see a brand new me tml lols
hahas

i'll smile xD

♥8:12 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

...

freaking angry lar

wth

...

do this do that also no one appreciates that.

at least i did it ok.

wadeva u wanna do does not fcuking concern me

zipit...

my mood got ruined .

now very very angry le

a lot of anger another spark and i'll explode

...

♥10:08 PM

Sunday, February 01, 2009

i saw this lame thing on my fren de blog

lols

...

no study=fail

study=no fail

no study + study=fail + no fail

[study][no + 1]=[fail][no + 1]

therefore, STUDY=FAIL ((:

♥7:13 PM

everytime

i do the daily newspaper articles.

it gives me sumthing to think about

...

haish

whenever i write the date

i will think i lot

its reminding me of reality

sumthing which i hate

hmm

its like counting the days that are passing u

and knowing that they will nvr be back again

...

its a kinda sad feeling also.

its nearing

everyday.

im worried

and thinking

a lots

its coming

im scared

i dun wanna it to come

de few days

i dun wan it

GO AWAY

...

i wanna sumone .

sumone to 靠 on but...

haish

....

it should be me lending a shoulder

not wanting a shoulder.

sobs

emo post ...

im gonna drown myself in homework

and try not to tink so much

it hurts

real bad

我不要不同可是我做不到

♥1:39 PM