Tuesday, November 30, 2010
coming to EPO made me kinda fatter D:
i've gained 5KG! like within 2 months. how wuld i ever survive.
i didn really eat more. but i tink i kinda exercised lesser.
imaginations will never take me anywhere.
just plain daydreaming is wad i do.
and i tink thats wad im best at.
LOL!
everyone got sumthing they are best at rights.
siighs.
well.
coming to this new place made me realize sumthing important.
humans are never simple.
even though i try to think they are.
they think im dumb. innocent and uber guillible.
I AM LIKE THIS!
i dun want people to keep taking advantage of me D:
or think that im dumb.
not saying anything doesnt mean i dun mind! D:
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people around me i know are like super fake.
backstabbing all around.
i wonder who is like real.
i just cant stop worrying that i'll say the wrong things
or make people not like me.
i dun wanna be hated ):
i dun wanna be seen as a burden to people.
i know im not gonna pass ippt. but im not doing anything
WADS WRONG WITH ME?!
):
I HATE MYSELF.
even 2sgts said de same thing.
everyone in my section pass.
except you...
i dunno whether they are trying to play reverse psychology on me or sumthing.
but its totally not working ):
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this few time i know that its kinda too late to regret stuff.
I;VE LOST MY BEST FRIENDS IN SEC SCHOOL
BECAUSE OF SOME DUMB QUARREL. and i know now its totally not worth it
even if i won that quarrel.
very sad to lose them. but its super weird to like patch up with them now.
after dunno how many years of not talking...
i hope that i'll be able to pass thru the 1 year 2 more months of NS!
i'll miss everyone in NS ):
i cant bear the feeling of separating again.
it hurts totally.
♥8:11 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2010
this week was my official week into EPO!
well~~ i could say its tiring..
hahas! most of my duties now are still under studying people.
and learning the basics of 2IC & morning docu jobs!
which is like the most difficult ones.
i did one of each ... learnt almost everything :D
the next thing is just to put it to test.
the first time of my mounting...
i screwed up quite a bit.
and im uber guilty for cuz-ing more trouble for people D:
monday will be my third duty.
will become the 2IC.
this time ... by myself !!!
OMG! i seriously scared sumthing bad will happen.
i dun have the confidence that i'll be able to do it.
):
everyone says they will be helping me.
and i can ask if im in doubt.
i know i will...
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arghh
why am i having this sad feeling again...
):
i keep looking out of my window.
at they sky...
which means i've loads on my mind.
and listening to sad songs doesnt help ):
but im still doing that -.-
maybe all i need is someone to confide to.
someone that i'll be able to rely on.
someone who can gimme a nice big hug no matter what (:
♥12:13 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
LYRICS:
REGINA SPEKTOR- THE CALL
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye...
<3
♥10:38 PM
