coming to EPO made me kinda fatter D:
i've gained 5KG! like within 2 months. how wuld i ever survive.
i didn really eat more. but i tink i kinda exercised lesser.
imaginations will never take me anywhere.
just plain daydreaming is wad i do.
and i tink thats wad im best at.
LOL!
everyone got sumthing they are best at rights.
siighs.
well.
coming to this new place made me realize sumthing important.
humans are never simple.
even though i try to think they are.
they think im dumb. innocent and uber guillible.
I AM LIKE THIS!
i dun want people to keep taking advantage of me D:
or think that im dumb.
not saying anything doesnt mean i dun mind! D:
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people around me i know are like super fake.
backstabbing all around.
i wonder who is like real.
i just cant stop worrying that i'll say the wrong things
or make people not like me.
i dun wanna be hated ):
i dun wanna be seen as a burden to people.
i know im not gonna pass ippt. but im not doing anything
WADS WRONG WITH ME?!
):
I HATE MYSELF.
even 2sgts said de same thing.
everyone in my section pass.
except you...
i dunno whether they are trying to play reverse psychology on me or sumthing.
but its totally not working ):
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this few time i know that its kinda too late to regret stuff.
I;VE LOST MY BEST FRIENDS IN SEC SCHOOL
BECAUSE OF SOME DUMB QUARREL. and i know now its totally not worth it
even if i won that quarrel.
very sad to lose them. but its super weird to like patch up with them now.
after dunno how many years of not talking...
i hope that i'll be able to pass thru the 1 year 2 more months of NS!
i'll miss everyone in NS ):
i cant bear the feeling of separating again.
it hurts totally.
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