im giving smiling a final chance :D

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

blogggin again

supposed to be doing hw but hahas

later then do bahs

i feel like sleeping already although its like 9 only

LOL

super tied leh

hmm tml i tink gonna be more tired

...

got pe -.- gotta run again

sian-ed

hahas

got co tml also

also sianed

heard that de guitar got bronze..

omgomg its like super super scary larx

i dunno wad de co will get but..

hope its at least a silver xD

best will be gold

gold with honour is like imposible at this point.

hahas

nest wednesday..

means like 7 MORE days

its like max gonna be 4 more practices only..

then its over

hmm kinda scared

...

nvm we worked hard

hmm today ended quite early

and then played a bit of cards

but wednesday isnt always a nice day..

cuz its like everyone will be going for cca and stuff

and cuz i dun have and its gonna be so quiet and stuff..

i dun really like this feeling kinda like left behind and lonely feeling

but at de same time when everyone's gone

it gives u time to tink about things

when its quiet.

ur thoughts get louder than usual

and soon u'll be daydreaming and staring space

i luv dreaming cuz it give me sumthing to hope about

a time where i get away from wads real

a time where i can do anything

a place of my fantasy

a place where everything i say counts

sadly dreams pass so quickly

even 24 hours aint enough.

ifimwillingtogiveupforuwhoswillingtogiveupforme

♥8:12 PM

Monday, April 27, 2009

today im tired.

i dunno why but this kind of tired is like

those extremly stressed those kind

those dun wanna taalk to pple

then wanna hide some corner

and think that sort..

just needa time to sort out my thoughts

time is passing to fast during the wrong times

when u are enjoying sumthing time passes fast

thats kinda true

i was very sian-ed today

my eye bags look very heavy today and looks like

i nvr got 3 days of sleep like that

but the truth is i slept kinda early all days lo

but dunno why..

at one point in time today.

i felt like overwhelmed with anger

but its only a while

kinda like passing rain a while then gone lerhs

but lucky i controlled myself

if not i would have really shouted and stormed off..

nvms dun talk about these sad stuff lerhs

...

u listened to me

u heard me

u rmbed things i told u that i forgot.

i enjoy spending that time with u

cuz its kinda nice to hear u and me share things

kinda close frens

its kinda de 1st time ive said so much

i put a lot of trust in u

plz dun break it (:

istillhaveloadstosayshouldi?

♥10:37 PM

Saturday, April 25, 2009

contd from ytd cuz i fell asleep le

LOL

theres so much i cant say.

i dun now how ..

but its how to you say it..

err like u got so much things bottled up.

its just only a matter of time that the cap will pop out.

zzz

++ now im feeling like that..

plus de weather it gets me into a very depressed state.

so warm and humid.

just by raising ur voice u think u're right?

thats nonsense.

close ur eyes try to remain calm

and try to concentrate

then a voice just pierces thru

that pitch and loudness

doesnt really help

get wad im tryin to say

stfu...

it really doesnt pay saying too much

haish sumtimes dun feel like going to skuu

partly cuz of the hot weather i wanna stay in de air con

feel so much better i tink later im gonna go cut my hair (:

too thick lerhs

super hot..

few more days only leh...

1 week and 4 days around there

syf is coming lerhs

zzz

i really dun dare to se de results..

its like de syf where im having de least confidence lorrs

omgomg lols

although ytd i heard that de music that we played had sum feeling

really ...

its only ytd.

i hope during tml de rehearsal will be fine xD

and we can do better than that

hmm

i have this yearn that co doesnt end so fast

cuz ...

its like gonna be last time maybe playing the instrument already

and..

...

looks are different

height not so same

but they look kinda retarded =x (dun be offended)

lame jokes got a lot

crappy things also got

always unxpected

with 3 letter names

they always nvr fail

to cheer me up

with sum dumb things xD

i come in with a frown and out with a smile'

what they do really make me give a big fat grin

and always make me laugh out loud

best frens i got .just wana say a biggy

THANK YOUU

whycantudothat?

♥12:38 PM

Friday, April 24, 2009

...

its just me...

my fault

i shouldnt...

nvms its over anyways

dun tink so much lerhs

i'll continue tml

♥11:07 PM

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

...

zzz

sian everyday also so freaking hot

makes me dun wanna go to skuu leh

LOL

i like already on-ing the air con

these few days de weather make pple pek chek one lo

hahas

but not me (:

its only the lectures =x

omg tml still got pe waahhh will get sunburnt and heatstoke one worrs

...

and the funny thing is thaat i got bronze for my napfa

i dunno whether the teacher see wrong or wad..

lols

its kinda unthinkable

went for co today but no combined so i was sian-ed

its dumb larx

syf coming already still dun wanna combined -.-'

its like asking for death or wad..

sectional is useless if u cant play together ..

just dunno wad are they thinking...

so xtremly sian lorrs

i tink i can memorize my score already (:

~~~`

daidi xDD rocks

wahaha

im addicted to all the gambling games

although we dun bet..

but it will be kinda thrilling if we were to bet

HAHA

nvms its wrong to do that in skuu

i stress in SKUU =x

physics test tml

and that teacher lecturing qp2

is teaching basically excess crap -.-

useless shit thing

dun even understand lo...

dunno tml will how..

SPA on friday leh

tml got meet the MP thing...

its so shitty

so much stuff to do lorrs ...

random things``

are dreams trying to tell us sumthing

ive just backtracked

into that pit ive just climbed out off

vith eww ewen mitenarwes durn 2 trweems (:

diduunderstandthat

♥4:53 PM

Monday, April 20, 2009

...

WOOTS im super super

HAPPY TODAY dunno wy but today de class

super high today

LOL(:

hahas dunno why but also extremly glad and proud

that CCHYCO got

GOLD WITH HONOURS

WAAA~~~~

its our third time joining syf

we started off with a silver then proceeded on xD

extremly happy for my juniors

they worked very hard and its

only right that they got it (:

although they met with a BIG obstacle a few weeks b4 syf

CONGRATZ

also todays practice was kinda dumb esp with her conducting wahh

i almost like dun wanna go

she super act lorrs

then super random also

zzz

kinda like wanna act she very pro like that

hate this kinda of people lorrs

...

nvms for yjCO

must get at least silver (:

so jiayou it'll be best if we can get gold

HAHA xD

just some random stuff

why do we get nitemares?

is it trying to tell us sumthing

am i thinking too much

im getting more and more influenced by u..

its not like that rights

tell me please

♥10:04 PM

Sunday, April 19, 2009

...

wad do i have to say today

202 BBQ is the BEST ((:

hahas

really had a good time there

many people got wet there

but lucky im still dry

gotta admit that de weather is super

humid nowadays

esp in class

waaa its like f-ing hot

im like not under de fan and summore

its super no wind those kind

dunno how to concentrate in class lorrs

zzz

sian-ed

so no fair rights ..

hmm

im like gonna say

wtf is wrong with u, weather..

lols

ytd went to joe joe party after co~~

so we went very very fast after that

we went there that time its like uber HOT

its like showering under the sun lorrs

cuz its like perspiring like mad

LOL

cuz partly cuz we dun wanna see that co teacher

cuz shes so f- uped

shes a bitch

freking nagging and stuff

keep on zhen dui us de ..

zzz

cant stand her..

syf coming lerhs

omgomg

i cant believe it but its soon...

just like2 more weeks or so..

die die die..~~~

de co like still not very coordinated leh

siighs

de weather makes me freaking pissed off..

it gets me irritated easily ..

it get me all sticky and stuff..

arghh

nvms

i'll just have to bear with it..

haish

i agree

T.W.I.F

♥9:10 PM

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

AHHH

omg omg

lols

why am i screaming

cuz i got RUDOLF the NOSE

u know wad i mean mahs

if u dun u are slow

LOL

i like got one huge pimple at my nose

its like extra extra bigg!!!

i can even see it ...

zzz

its not getting any better

actually it got really worse today

when i go skuu then it grew

sian-ed

now become like clown aleadys

i hope that it will go away ~

grr..

today skipped esp

not for fun

but for maths

LOL

i did maths leh

hahas

((:

tml i got dental .. i forgot de timin

but its at orchard

sobs so far~~

then thurs i got co..

fri got bbQ

saturday got CO... ESP and joejoe PARTY

but co and esp overlap dunno which one to go to

btw im ponning co on fri =x

sian-ed

i got so much things packed

its super busy this week

i hope next week not so hiong if like thaat go on i will die de..

so much to do..

my studies also not very good lerhs

ifeelcomfortablethethingsarenowsostfu

♥9:56 PM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

...

hmm not a very nice day today

kinda extremly bored

its more boring than usually

and i am having de temptation to play

but i have stacks

really

stacks of hw that i have not finished

im like doing chem now

kinda gonna do de gp presetation laters

zzz

but dunno how to do when so little ppl gimme de things

i wonder

hmm

de phrase

hear/see/say no evil...

it much applies to me

since i dun say evil

neither do i wanna hear or see them

they get me disgusted and annoyed

thats true...

-loveislikeaglassifubreakit

itshardtofixnevenifumanage

thatitllnvrbethesameagain-

saw it in my phone pic

...

i forgot wad i wanna say le..

zzz

was doing hw halfway

LOL

nvms

its just boring i hope that i can spend de time better

ifudunsayanythingnoonewillsayyou'redumb

♥4:40 PM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

...

today just had co again

but this time was at river valley high

and its lik xtremly far away from yishun ...

took about like 45mins to 1 hour

and we had to wake up so early

de purpose was to perform in front of like 5 other schools

jc and secondary schools

NJC, river valley..

jurong,jurongville,river valley sec.

expected..

our performance was de worst

not to say anything bad but it wasnt really up to standard

compared to nj or river valley

summore our syf is behind hwa chong

i cant believe wads gonna happen

sian-ed

...

today we played and we had de least number of pple

and de music was not very pleasant.

hahas

had to say it

3 more weeks left only

we had to do it

its just only that...

we had to have a silver

jia you

yjco (:

wobuhuibeiniyingxiangdao

♥8:24 PM

Friday, April 10, 2009

i just tot about it

and i just wanna have some pics

rmb the times

together always ~~

let de pictures do the talking

a picture is life's most beautiful moment at a standstill (:

the happy times

the sad times

the quarrelling times

eating times

outing times

dumb times (mostly dumb) we had

will etch deep in my heart.

yjoo9'o8 iC.R.E.A.T.E

xoxo

♥5:14 PM

Thursday, April 09, 2009

yupp yupp

today is the day after almost one year of our hard work

is gonna pay off

for most of us i guess..

well its pw

and its like so called..

de difficult part in j1 life

but in another perspective it actually brings u much closer

with all de quarrels and debatess so groups dun really work well

but we had to get used to it

but my group rocks (:

talking and playing and eating

u actually get to see each other almost everyday lo..

pw mates are de best ((:

although sum of us didnt get wad we wanted.

it sure motivated most of us to do much better for de coming A's

yepp

its coming

so we must jiayou hor

202 no matter wad is it we did out best

and anyways THANKS MS DIANA

for everything u did for us

love ya loadss

and to my pw group

grats to joejoe xD

and jing n merv cheer up

we did our best

best team always (:

i'll always rmb the times we had together

playing daidi, eating dougnuts

, going to nlb, talking and doing wr n op

its one of a lifetime experience and

i nvr regretted it spending it with all of ya ..

now felt kinda sadded that i didnt really got an A

but i kinda expected it already

im just deceiving myself only..

so it wasnt a really pleasant day

went for co too

and i have to thank ray and de rest (:

they really cheered me up

and i kinda forgot all about it during de session

was laughing about ur stupid actions

and humour xD

and also ruiming ((:

went for dinner also

then didnt really think loads about it

we talked a lot at ljs and ate..

its kinda nice had a good chit chat and

went back lerh

tqtq peeps i will do my best to stay cheerful as always

♥9:49 PM

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

...

i heard that pw results gonna come out soon le lorrs

omg omg

im like kinda scared and worried at de same time

zzz

feel like dying soon

although my spirit have been quite good and high these 2 days..

but i dun tink i will be able to sustain it for long

...

i happen to like get this point in time

when i feel that im on de verge

on going back to wad i felt like ...

its just tha thin line between it

but i kinda not fall below it..

trying my best too

today was quite ok...

just that today is more taxing than ytd mentally taxing

studied til 6 plus...

omg its like non stop thruout...

tml will not be that bad but ...

its still until.1.45pm

and i got ptd summore..

sian-ed

until 9 plus...

sure bored to death ones..

today de maths thing

SCP thing

quite okay managed to spend some time on maths

at least complex numbers dun seem too complex le

at that point.

i almos fell thru into de emo zone..

its just that i weak in my foundation

i dun really have de interest for maths.

is just that im taking it cuz i need it next time

for uni.

after this i dun feel like doing anything on it le

hmmm~~

bt results...

BBSU...

its like super sad lorrs

i done relatively well for chem n phy

partly cuz i studied.

partly cuz i got interest for it

econs was just plain careless...

i was blind that day..

-.-

i tink i dropped de most for maths lorrs

from a B to S

its like almost 30 marks...

LOL

kinda very very sad

willibehappylikethis

♥8:26 PM

Sunday, April 05, 2009

to start off with de pictures

~~~

YOU get to see

~~~~

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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SLEEPING BEAUTY ((: hahas

in de mrt to nus that time

we were like super lucky to get this pic

'he' looks like he's n a nightmare

lols

frowning like very sad like that

next we went o do sum cliche stuff

hahas

de legg thingy xDD

its looks kinda nice

and im de one in slippers muahah

then we go on into our childhood after de nus
we went to cuzway (:
then i saw a kiddie ride
and its BARNEY
de purple dinosaur
lol

then we went to eat sumthing
and this person trying to act cute sia
LOL
=x
coering up his face
but very obvious who is it hor

orhh
there u see him again
now eting lerhs
=x
PIZZA
whahaa

CHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
OMG
its super nice
and spices of cuz
hahas

and this was de place kinda waiting for de pizza

so got kinda very bored

LOL

4 drinks means 4 pple ((:

mango soda i tink

lols forgot alreadys=x

and its my pizza with all de cheese

we used 1 bottle plus going 2 bottle lerhs

most by me

wahahaha
its like covered until de topping also gone

waa

so fast started without me le arhs

and this some leftover cheese mixed with waer

and it tastes cheesy

thats all..

LOL

we decided on ice cream

kinda too tempted already thats why

whahaha

still got so much whip cream

yuck

i wanna de ice cream

finally ~~~

TA DA~~~~~~~~~

i up load de pics sure got rmb myself de lorrs

((:

wahaha

its me

on de ride

but still got one more unglam de

cannot show

meiyouniddeganjuebutong

♥11:02 AM

just decided to blog now

cuz its very hot now and im sticky and annoyed

so dun really have de mood to really study well

but still got so much to do.

and im like thinking so much

arghh

sianed

then later i still gonna go out

...

im like here to blog ytd experience

it was like NAPFA

ytd

so i did quite a lot

but really

its expected that i will fail

but i improved

but not that much to pass it..

sian-ed

i was really suprised ytd.

i didnt really know that my limits were that much..

was it becuz i didnt try hard enough

or becuz of ...

nvm that.

then after that went home bath

and went out for maths trail

i like very busy lo..

i was late as usual...

and we were all late there anyways...

ARGHH

nvm..

i wear like casual there and

im not de only one actually

and it paid off cuz the weather there was scorching hot

i spent like quite a lot ytd

and when it was time to go back..

we were like split up to do question 1st

so they all went back 1st..

without waiting.

nvm that actually im happy that they did..

and so didnt really emo much after that.

left kai,merv,me,anna,dx,kenny

then went on de train

actually wanted go plaza sing

but couldnt make up my mind mahs

so...

we just actually wanted to go home

but we convinced dx and kenny to come with me and anna

to causeway point to eat and shop a bit

later i upload de pics hahas

i got one super unglam pic

cannot upload de

muahaha

♥9:48 AM

Friday, April 03, 2009

its 5 days since i've been this emo-ing

...

hmm

im like kinda extremly emo these few days

and its difficult for me not to emo

really

only a few days when i get back home

i start to feel better

is like the more i stay in skuu

the more i emo

so its better if i can actually go back

today

again

i saw a star in the sky.

but the 1st one i tot of wasnt u

it wasnt anyone

but after a while

de person that soon i tot of was still u.

shows that its kinda getting good alreadys

sooner or later only

i'll soon forget it

i know that im not in a very good mood these few days

so dun get influenced by me hor

and if i dun really care

i dun really mean it

im sure ill be okay next week i hope.

if i can survive tml

without thinking of u.

tml its napfa..

omg

i dun tink can pass at all.0% chance

haish

)):

i tink im gonna sleep lerhs

although i got tons of hw

nitey nite

♥10:07 PM

Thursday, April 02, 2009

...

i dunno why

but even though i may feel that its hard

i have actually no one else to blame

other than myself

... why do i have to be like that..

i have no control over it ...

myxinjustdongagain

♥10:14 PM

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

...

hmmm

just feeling right now kinda better

im not too much emotional alreadys

its a much nicer thing now

but im still not completely out from the mess.

its now that i must tolerate.

and resist....

after this its gonna get much better

i must do it

lemme just not think about it and just be distracted by everthing else

only by using up the 24 hours

i wun have anymore time to tink about it anymore...

i dunno why everything u do now hurts me

i shouldnt have even given myself de

slighest glimpse of hope

back then

if i knew de same thing will happen...

i'll be in the darkest tunnel nvr to be seeing the dimmest light again

跟深的爱，跟深的伤。

♥10:24 PM