im giving smiling a final chance :D

Friday, July 31, 2009

hmmm i seriously got loads to write

but i dunno where to start from lol!

hahas i'll just write wad comes to mind bahs

i may seem weird but thats wad in my mind xD

WAHAHA!

one more WEEK!

then study break already everyone's getting sicker and more nervous of cuz

... i keep seeing people not coming to skuu then like

missing out on so much ... hope they can cope well hor

oh yeah summore our class like got quite high expecttion

from the skuu leh! lol

from wad mr wong say today they expect us to do super well

in prelims and of cuz A's

haish haish i very scare cuz prelims gonna be more difficult than A

its confirmed one even the teachers agree lo

lol! i wonder whether i'll have no time to do or stare at the question

...

zzz

im gonna miss NY test tml

lol! cuz i like going out tml then i wasted 20 bucks on it

sobs i feel that my money is flowing at like doubly fast as it comes in

im lousy at handling money

i like tink NS get 400 bucks monthly leh!

a lot people say its a lot

but i tink that i can like 1-2 weeks spend all leh =x

LOL!

nvm ...

im studying maths

OMGosh rights!

hahs i just dun wanna fail anymore

i realized i did like quite okays for promo

then flunk my BT this year

dunno what happen ... but its like almost de same topics

except vectors...

which i totally suck at it

i really like cant visualize the stuff...

sian i hope i can do much better in mr wen de test lo

integration hope i dun fail xD

MUST PASS at least

then after that climb up to top few

i realized i nvr kena b4 ever!

lol!

actually tinking back hor

i tink J1 more work to do lor lol!

i MISS PW

although others groups dun like but i wanna !

MY group ROCKS

hehe

oh yeah and we really went to 18 chef to eat

and really saw mr benny (:

we did it

and the food uber nice

especially the cheese!

WAHAH!

alrights i tink i write until here bahs quite tired le

hehe wanna go sleep sleep

♥10:18 PM

Thursday, July 30, 2009

omg! its back (:

hahas they blogger is back to normal le finally

now is like so late le then i discover i feel like sleeping already leh

WAHAH

maybe i'll just type in my dreams bahs ((:

i feel that everyone is like super stressed up leh

CHEER UP PEOPLE

got people kena flu etc. then some super emo

if not is like the total opposite...

202 prelim coming lerh

2 more weeks OMG!

and then another 3 weeks of it!

JIA YOU PEEPS

we must show everyone that we're the best rights

cuz we're 202!

!!!

对不起

♥10:53 PM

Monday, July 27, 2009

... still not fixed and i dun like my post on blogger it looks wierd hahas!
but at least i can write sumthing i wanna post pic also cant now -.-
GRrR siighs nvm next time bahs hehe . 2 more weeks!
omg omg i feel so unprepared ... like not enough time to do all my revision
haish and im scared for maths now ... but i was like so happy that i solved one
question just now WAHAHAH !!!!! tml got test for differentiation hope can pass (:
also got chem test paper 3 . lol try w/o the book see how much i know so i know how to study
im like thinking after A lvl then NS comfirm 2 months early
that im like fine with it cuz i benefit anyway
the only bad thing is that im gonna be botak . CRAP i cant imagine how i look
bet its gonna be retarded... summore after that go uni wanna be vet must go overseas
it seems that the requirements arent so easy and its not gonna be cheap
hmm next choice is pyschology also pretty difficult here zzz
haven tot of the rest but this are my interest (: sure can get in one xDD
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thinking loads and loads dunno wads wrong with me sian
i get easily angered at times and feel super lethargic and sleepy always
zzz the only time where im calm and nice is during sunset bahs
cuz i'll always look out at it cuz i tink its the nicest time of the day (:
hehe also i like the song 'top of the world' its kinda old but its nice
beeen listening like a lot to it.
1 second.

♥10:05 PM

Sunday, July 26, 2009

lols the post box thingy is back but wheres all the icons zzz
i cant make any colour shift it or even change de font
drats GRR!!! nvm hope thaat it'll be okays soon bahs
prelim timetable out lerhs siighs its like 3 weeks of exams
CRAP no time for teachers day also ): cuz the last day is after that
so sad rights we wanna bake cake for our teacher one but
now i dun tink anyone has the time now
hope they understand hor (:
i saw a new SHOE lol! its quite nice in black
but sadly they dun have my SIZE the sad thing is they got bigger size one -.-
so i made do with the white one HAHA it looks nice also after i looked at it for a long time (:
size 10.5 lol! weird sizing but still okays ((:
i hope im gonna get it later hehe
and today went out with ah ma go eat dim sum xDD
super super nice i ate a lot lot lot lol!
my ah ma see liao then shocked say 1st time i eat so much JUNK!
cuz i dun really eat much for dinner . cuz its rice =x
hehe just realized i haven start revising yets and i doubt one week is enough lorrs
tink im gonna need like 2-3 weeks for everything
haish so im gonna do moderaately well for everything bahs
hearing stuff from my tuition teecher he says that yj the physics super hard ):
... and im scared for my maths also die die die
haish left few more weeks dun even know how to integrate
WAHAHA ! its just that i need time to practise then i can rmb liao
practise a bit here and there then can lerh
i tink i can give up on vectors already
siigh chem looks ok(:
physics left the year one stuff
and econs is the year 2 things lol!
maths is EVERYTHING
craps gotta start soon
zzz im still not handling my money well
brb im off to causeway get my new shoes (:

♥7:35 PM

Friday, July 24, 2009

i dunno why my blogger is like this
but its kinda weird leh lol! cuz its like i cant see the blogpost properly when im writing like now...
LOL! nvms haish i dun feel so hype anymore these few days. and im lousy and controlling my finance zzz im kinda broke . very broke actually...
grrr i needa more $$$!!! if u got extra and u dun mind giving away sum . i dun mind accepting them ((:
muahaha! kinda thinking 3 more weeks then prelim lerhs.... 4 more months then a lvls lerhs less than 6 months ns lerhs. time is like passing super fast this 2 years i dunno why but haish... i dun wanna this 2 years to end ...i want a lvl to be done and over with yet i want the time we have as a class for a long time not to end... kinda contradicting rights siighs ): grad in oct theres only 2 more months we can see each other <3 202

♥8:47 PM

Thursday, July 16, 2009

i feel so much like crying

i dunno

but i feel that everythings bottled up

and its gonna explode soon

with noone around

to tell

and i cant either

i'll just have to carry the burden

til my knees give way

for now

its already almost down

im scared

♥10:14 PM

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

i dunno

but im feeling kinda lost these few days

staring into space

wasting my time away imagining

wondering thinking

about things that can nvr come true

yahh

things can cant come true

it seems hopeless

but sumhow im still clinging on

onto some invisible thread

which i've made up

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some bonds made have been stronger

none of them fadin away

but yet there's one hanging in the middle

still very indecisive

sumtimes strong

sumtimes weak

i dunno where it'll head to

but i hope its to the strong one

enditquick

♥9:48 PM

Monday, July 13, 2009

i spent like most of my time doing maths today

LOL!

its the prelim paper

that mock one

zzz

i like about unsure =x

although i got like some help from mervin and kai

i still cant finish it

i dunno i do correct a not leh

sian-ed

haish at least i completed maths

and tml got vectors test

and the worst thing is the maths paper i did got no vectors

wad luck

i tot i can like practise on it if got

then save time

but dun have lol

pray hard (:

i hope i can finish it or even start it =x

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wasted some time staring out of the window

dunno why attracted to it

maybe its the cold breeze bah

i stood there

staaring out

cuz sunsett lerhs then quite nice

but all kena blocked by forest or hdb

nvr see the horizon b4

i wish i could but sg is not bigg enough la hor

then sky darkening lerh keep looking

seeing got any stars tonite mahs

suddenly i missed cambodia

LOL!

cuz the nites there are amazing

sumting that u will nvr see in sg

the scene was so beautiful until no time take picture

hahas the nite has always been so peaceful

i l0VEe it xD

iwasthinkingwhetheruwouldbethinkingofme

♥10:33 PM

Thursday, July 09, 2009

my 150th post here ! lol

hahas gonna post about saturday (:

i knows its kinda late

but it was my cuzzie carnival

i went there to help him plus enjoy some free coupons eh

xDD

morning woke up at 7am

travel all the way to bedok which was freaking far

then reached skuu at 9am

their skuu very big n nice not like mine

=x wahha

well got loads of stuff to eat

SUBWAY!

BEN & JERRYS (remind me of wap)

NACHOS!

etc

lols

i ate around like 6 plates of nachos

the cheese was super nice

just like gv one yumm!

okok no wonder i got sore throat

plus then i won 2 monkeys from playing some game

its soft toy not the real one

LOL!!!

then the last and final part

i took the viking ship in the carnival

i know its small

and only reach 2 storeys

but i was SCREAMIN!

lol

which add on to my sore throat

then i went eat dinner

we chatted loads

and like so much stuff to say

awww

but then we went to eat

DURIAN puffs

super super nice

we 3 shared like 20 of them

and gobbled them all up

before i can take photo

zzz

thats how i got sore throat -.-

WAHAHA!

reached home around 9pm

and super exhausted

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alrights more about today

ytd i didnt go skuu

lol

so today went then pple say i got swine flu

wt...

-no comments for them-

but today was pretty slack

i auto-fail the maths test...

which was sad cuz its not very diff

and gotta do questions

but i tink i need the practice

tml even more slack

2 lesson nia cuz the other 2 teacher not coming

LOL!

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sumtimes near sumtimes far

i dunno which one i prefer

i hate choosing >:(

help me make one

♥9:51 PM

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

lol

i didnt make it and now im ill

zzz haish'

missing out so much today

esp its maths...

im like dying from maths

got asp plus test then didnt go

so today im gonna study maths

even though im sick

stupid me!

♥9:26 AM

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

i dun feel so well...

zzz feel like sleeping all the time

and kinda feel feverish

siigh

its like this stupid gonna get fever those kind of state

for like 1 week

and the fever isnt here yet

LOL!

its torturing me ....

im mentally exhausted with everything suddenly weighin down on me

i feel pressured

all the things i tink of adds on to my worry

and there im not able to tell anyone anything

i dun have a conifdant

and i dun plan on getting one either

too many things i cant say out

to anyone except myself

...

grrr

summore tml got pe leh

i dunno i can hang on mahs

haish

some happy stuff (:

went for sakae ytd

ate a lot

also spent a lot

lol!!!

haixx

no $$!!!

sian sian lol

im like owing $ and at the same time wan so much more

stuff which are like so ex

zzz

i wanna have another buffet

WOOTS

seoul GARDEN!!!

dunno why so many people dun like it

but its ok rights?

hahas (:

bunengzuowaidemah

♥9:08 PM

Saturday, July 04, 2009

i saw this nice poem sumwhere (:

The dreamer

Always in the clouds

Escaping into fantasy

Worlds created in their minds

Worlds better

Worlds stronger

Stronger than true reality

We make our own reality

The dreamer

Wearing hearts on their sleeves

For the world to see

Waiting for the love of their life

To come and sweep them off their feet

Waiting for their knight

Knight in shining armor

The dreamer

Clinging to love

Even after it's long ago slipped away

Clinging to hope

Until they can't cling anymore

Clinging 'til they crumble

'Til they fall apart

Clinging to dreams, to made up realities

The dreamer

The artist

The hopeful

All these names

All these hopes and dreams

All this love

All from the pisces

nice XD

extracted lyrics from a nice song

Closed off from love

I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough

And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass

Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened

For the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground

Found something true

And everyone's looking round

Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

...

i got some pics one but lazy to upload so next time bahs xD

♥9:16 PM

Friday, July 03, 2009

BOO!

lol came back lerhs today quite a lot to say dunno start from where

HAHA!!!

hmmm maybe start from skuu bah

met joan this morning in the bus lol

quite coincidence then went skuu

ok skuu was quite boring la hor

nth much

only thing is get back econ BT

zzz i tot at least i will like pass but didnt

sadded lorrs

RAWR!

nvms at least didnt do that badly

then we went baack to clean classroom

super dirty and its quite nice xD

cuz the class doing sumthing again today

opps haven celebrate may and june babies worr !!!

lol maybe next week bah

after skuu was okays

walked to np

wahh now its looks nice and bigger

and got NEW RESTAURANT

MANHATTAN FISH MARKET (:

super nice lol

cant wait for it

then realized sakae open lerh

maybe go eat on monday hahas

we pei joan go buy her doggie present

and also they pei me go get a new RAT!

lol its actaually a mouse

lol (:

went to ate sausages and also i bought a bakerzin cheese cake

WOOTS

wanted to eat ytd but bo liew (no $)

later gonna eat it hehe

haish

overall spent 31 bucks

OMG rights

sian-ed

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now talk about the not very nice stuff

....hmmm

i dunno but its about the same prob i said in the last posts

...

haish

now its like a huge huge barrier in between lerhs
seems like an endless ocean

knowing the other's presence at the other end

we both try hard to reach one another

but everytime we cross the ocean

almost when we reach the middle

a sudden storm and huge wave brings us back to where

we were initially

on the sandy beach , cold

lonely, hungry

we lie there starin up into the nite sky

wondering about each other

into the full moon we look

the other's reflection suddenly apppears

giving a smile cuz we know that

we care about one another

we have the thought but we cant express it out

one of them decides to give up

after everything

stands up walk away

and the reflection in the moon disappears

at the other shore the image slowly vanishes

with tears streaming down

closes eyes

thinkin about why did the other leave

....

<3thatwasmylastgoodbyetoyou

♥5:58 PM

Thursday, July 02, 2009

...

im not in a very good mood today after i reached home

kinda grumpy and stuff

dunno why but i feel super tired like nvr sleep for the past few days like that leh

zzz so sleepy eyes so tired

CRAP!

but at least nvr go skuu today

think about nicer stuff

went to do medical checkup and its like

we lost our way there haha

reached at 930am

then finished around 1-2pm like that

not very long xcept for de computer that test.

sian-ed

haha

then went pizza hut eat xD

only 49 bucks cheaper than wad we ate last time

4 people 50++

now 6 people 49

LOL!

great spenders

then we summore go play LaN (:

for like around 2 hours plus 3

haha quite okays lorrs

then went back home

thats why so tired

grrr. i wanna sleep lerh

if not tml wun wake up lerh

LOL!

tired

and sumthing i got pes A!!!!

wth i tot i will get like D or sumthing

maybe sum heart prob or sumthing

but nth zzz

omg

and now im so unfit

it only means that

i can be fit

but nvr try

its the mentality bahs

always like this one

haish

= me having weak mind

siigh how to overcome it?

can sumone tell me

-expect the unexpected (:

imnotwadiseemtobe

♥9:25 PM

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

...

lol tml dun needa go school

cuz got medical checkup (:

its gonna take a long long time wor

from wad the others say LOL

around like 4 hours plus

zzz sian-ed

haha but after that we go watch ICE AGE 3D WOOTS

xDD

1st time gonna see 3d movie

lol cant rmb whether its the 1st time

but if i watch b4 is also very long ago

cant rmb any

lol!

waa tml got BLOOD TEST

draw my blood

zzz got injection !!!

scared scared ):

haha just dun like the feeling that blood is coming out from me

...

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i dunno how to say this but

its like alternating currentt?

lol sumtimes +ve sumtimes -ve?

lol thats how it has been

no better eg to illustrate must lemme tink 1st

LOL

sumtimes attract sumtimes repel u know

zzz nvms my eg not very good hahas

but its around there la hor

siighs

its like although we're just beside each other

we're at the same time worlds apart..

haha a bit random right

lol!!!

readers dun understand nvm

i know can lerh WAHAHA!

blehs >:P

feeling kinda :_(

♥8:55 PM