he loves to dream. he likes wondering about what could have been, should have been, and may have been. he loves looking at the night-sky - who knows, a shooting star may just fly past one day and he will be able to make his wish. his wish to be with you.

[[ Theonenonlyme ]]

nicholas
19
NVPS
CCHY , 1b 2/3/4G
YJC , P02 102 202!
28-02-1991
trying to be myself

[[ The Wishlist ]]

1.learn piano (: especially the piece ::melodies of life:: from FF9
2.get a doggie (:
3.to control my fianances
4.leave longer hair especiallyy my fringe (:
5.get a tatoo (: 'small one can lerhs but must be nice ``
6.study overseas!! vet degree (:
7.travel all around the world.especially new zealand, usa, australia and venice .
8.dye my hair maybe brown? haven tot of the colour yets
9.do one pull-up :X happening soon lerhs. i hope.
10.get a nice bronze tan (:
11.try out all the colours on my braces
12.get drunk? hahas it sounds fun :X
13.driving license
14.get a convertible car
...
15.give my first kiss to sumone special xDD

nth much to do this morning.
so i went to search for videos.
...
awww.
i suddenly rmb-ed our cchyco!
the syf!
and i suddenly feel like listening to it.
and then i was like OMG!
why cant i be in co again.
D:
haish.i feel so nostalgic lo...
i LOVE CO! :D
hahas.
even the jc one too.
(:
i love the parts where we had to train so very very hard for syf!
lol.
and the times we were performing and having a concert!
its so enjoyable.
but these times will not come back again.
its just the same for the A's
....
i was thinking.
after the release of de results
it may be the last time that we maybe see-ing each other as a whole class again.
D:
everyone has different paths then.
differenet routes.
we have different schedules and time tables then.
but there's one thing that will always remain the same.
we are from 202! (:
......................................
im gonna go army soon.
it'll be a while before im out again.
new people new frens.
it wuld just mean lesser time.
...
wondering how life wuld be in there.
the thing im scared of...
is that i will lian lei other people becuz of me.
i dun wanna that to happen.
im scared... what if i dun pass ippt.
worries....
just fill me up everytime im bored.
it makes me feel emo-ish.
withdrawn from everyone else.
and its a need for me to be alone for a period of time.
to settle things by myself for myself.
the emotional struggle.
):
more time and thinking is all i need.
just staring blankly into space actually helps.

♥10:19 AM

i just tot of one random thing.
the evolution of noobs.
NEWBIE > NOOBIE > NOOB > NUB
lol.
its kinda dumb.
but im wondering wad nub will change to next time
hahas!
im like uber bored at home like recently.
...
nth much to do.
except to wait for ns lo.
siighs.
4 months.
before i can pass out.
jia you, myself!
i can do it :D
LOL!
actually...
my schedule like super packed.
like almost going out everyday until like 12 plus like that lo.
...
im gymming quite a lot.
and swimming (:
im gonna be tan tan tan tan tannn~~~
la. la la la.~~~

♥4:44 PM

wooo~
im tanner now :D
lol.
people say i look different.
...
hmmm and skinny-ier
OMG!
i tot i became heavier lehs.
hahas.
1kg heavier. now at 67kg.
aiming to 70kg
and my appeitite like super bigg la.
wth.
eat so much stuff.
worse than puberty
-.-
i tink i can reach 70 la.
eating so much during cny
:D
i love love love...
PINEAPPLE TARTS.
CASHEW NUTS
PEANUT COOKIES
PISTACCHIOS
KUEH BAHLU.

i tink if i go visiting to ur house.
and u got all these at home.
i will finish them all
MUAHAHA!
xD
ytd went swim plus gym.
waa it took like 4 hours.
the longest ever!
....
then later we both go eat dessert mah.
i say i treat.
then was deciding where to go.
saw de HK cafe de ones quite nice.
...
BLWAEHHH
it was fucking horrible.
opps :x
but serious.
i ordered some ice kachang thing.
and cherry float..
and i tot wad cherry float was at 1st.
in de end it was cherryade and icecraeem
WTF!
and the ice kachang was like.
even though i got super sweet tooth.
its was $#%&$ sweet
LOL
....
in de end almost wasted everything.
only my fren took de safer choice.
go for ying yong.
lol.
siann.
spoil my appetite.
hahas.
then went to my fren house play sum game
LOL
lost 10 cents
-.-
diaooo~
hahas
then went on to play dai di.
then i go home sleep le.
....
yay!
tml im going to the revolving restaurant there
yeppie im so excited!!!

♥12:50 PM

waa~
qing song duo le
lol.
:D
today after all de visiting already lo.
then went swim today...
13 laps today.
was faster this time.
and wasnt that tired as the previous time.
then later go walk walk around.
and ate laksa
OMG!
hahas it feels that i just wasted that swimming hor.
but nvm.
i need more weight anyways.
so cny is a good time to be fatter xD
tml going for mahjong-ing session!
i hope i dun lose!
i dun wanna always gamble and lose de lehs.
must at least win once la (:
tml be the 1st time
HAHA!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i suddenly feel like....
i've like lost my frens?
...
i dunno but i just feel this way lo.
its sum sort of lonely feeling im having these days...
these feelings that i hate.
cuz i get emo real easy and think too much.
which is a bad thing.
D:

♥11:44 PM

2nd day of NEW YEAR!
:D:D:D
hahas
didnt do much today except mahjong-ing again.
LOL!!
didnt camwhore much today...
just a bit only.
im really tired.
i dunno why.
i like cheng bu zu already.
even though im not studying...
im still worrying about stuff...
its like dumb.
i dunno wad im worried about even.
but itts like a lot.
-.-
i tink i needa more sleeep i sleep too little these days :X

♥11:17 PM

HAPPY HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR + VALENTINE'S DAY :D
today is a super super fun day with all my cuzzies!
hahs!
quite long we didnt see each other already!
and we're so happy to be together again
playing MAJONG!
(:
lol
its like a majong-ing sesssion at my ah ma place.
i ate a lot and its really a lot!
its scary that i ate so much....
my ahma cooked super a lot lo.
within like half a day she like cooked so much!
i wonder how she did that.
got many many stuff!
my fave!
i ask my ah ma cook de
salted veg duck soup
YUMMY!
♥ YOU AH MA!
hehe!

♥10:53 PM

so many things have just been weighing on my mind recently.
i cant seem to take them off.
i dunno why.
i just havent got enough time and space to have my own personal time~
so now everything there!!
begging me to just think about it.
so i'd rather got emo-ish
cuz im worrying about everything too much.
i just cant help it.
D:
i wish i could stop thinking but sadly i cant.
even you.
added on to this already huge pile.
and its a heavy one summore.
i just have so many feelings running thru right now.
seriously i feel like just running away.
to sum where far.
and just start without any worries.
haish if only i could.

♥9:44 PM

finally i've finished working at robinsons le (:
the working place there is not very nice larx.
but i kinda miss come people there lo!!
esp my colleagues from my cashiers there de.
but i hate like 2 of the managers there lo.
i've learnt some valuable lessons there too!
but now im like free~~ no jobs left le. then super boring le lo.
nth much to do at home lo.
haish. now is just waiting for army nia.
and im feeling kinda afraid lehs.
well at least im able to meet new frens there.
now all my frens are either working in army le.
i feel so lost suddenly.
lost my direction in life.
):
im trying my best to find it back!
it'll take some time.
cuz now im gonna be emo.
and tink slowly...
wad do i really wanna.
now i really miss my cuzzies!!

♥4:31 PM

[[ Magical Ones ]]

Bei Ling
Carissa
Carmen
Cerelia
Chandrika
Diaryland
Dorothy
Ferran
Hoyin
HongWei
Jas
JiaHui
Junshen
Lim Min
LiQi
Marlene
MEL
Sarah
Sheryl
wenxi
Valerie
YanXin
Yew Li

102'o8/202'o9
Joel
lijing

CUZZIE!
CARRIE CUZ!

[[ loving words ]]