im giving smiling a final chance :D

The Dreamer

he loves to dream. he likes wondering about what could have been, should have been, and may have been. he loves looking at the night-sky - who knows, a shooting star may just fly past one day and he will be able to make his wish. his wish to be with you.

[[ Theonenonlyme ]]

nicholas
19
NVPS
CCHY , 1b 2/3/4G
YJC , P02 102 202!
28-02-1991
trying to be myself

[[ The Wishlist ]]

1.learn piano (: especially the piece ::melodies of life:: from FF9
2.get a doggie (:
3.to control my fianances
4.leave longer hair especiallyy my fringe (:
5.get a tatoo (: 'small one can lerhs but must be nice ``
6.study overseas!! vet degree (:
7.travel all around the world.especially new zealand, usa, australia and venice .
8.~~dye my hair maybe brown? haven tot of the colour yets~~
9.~~do one pull-up :X happening soon lerhs. i hope.~~
10.~~get a nice bronze tan (:~~
11.~~try out all the colours on my braces~~
12.get drunk? hahas it sounds fun :X
13.driving license
14.get a convertible car
...
15.give my first kiss to sumone special xDD

Sunday, October 31, 2010

very long lerhs! loads to write about...
been posted to new sub-unit le!
EPO(escort & processing office)!
im gonna spend my 1 year 4 months here!
omg~ its sounds like a long time lehs...
ehhh been hoping a lot to come over here!
people here are nice and the environment is awesome too:D
i tink its great! but seniors said i haven seen the worst...
welll.!
im sure i can make it! after so long!
watching dramas isnt a nice way to spend my leave D:
make me tink of things that are so impossible!
imagining stuff again!
moving further away from reality! *ITS BAD! FOR ME*
sumhow i feel that i've been drifting far away from my frens.
all the relationships i've made seem so fake.
arghh. for some reason i kinda get this tiny tinge
of lonliness again.
i tink too much
i dream too much
i imagine too much
of impossible things
that i really hope could be possible.
holding on to a dream that might never come true.
it may not mean much but i tink its the only form
of motivation for me to carry on in life.
since now i ask i myself.
what am i fighting for...?
why am i on this planet earth...?
am i to live or to survive....
i hope one day i would be able to say
im on planet earth to live and not to survive.

♥7:52 AM

Sunday, October 03, 2010

hmmm im back after a long time of posting already.
!!!
a great decision that i made that day didnt really happen.
cuz of my indecisivness...
thats a good thing :D n im still alive.
talk to me 1 week ago...
the only words i wuld say was...
'huh?'... *with a blur & extremly depressed look.
but noW! i much much better.
well, most of it had to do with army.
D:
it sucks.
PREEVIOUS LIFE:
SUCKED TO THE MAX! D:
ALMOST DIDNT MAKE IT!
SIIGHS
HAD MORE MONEY!
PRESENT LIFE:
MONEYLESS!
no money lerhs! im spending so so much everytime.
siighs.
mostly or almost everything on food...
each meal almost cost like 30 plus???!?!
how to survive hor.
plus now.
no meals indented.
GG!
hahas...
trying to save until pay day! 1 more week :D
omg...
but im gonna have MARCHE with anna this week again!
lols.
diee~~~~~
life is now 8-5 daily. with nth much to do.
cuz im understudying people.
so....
its slack as u can call it.
but another 2 more weeks and its a different story altogether.
*I MISS MP BASIC*
most likely cuz there's a lot of quebec peeps!
now...
only im left...
de rest are not really here!
ARGHH~
1 year 5 more months to GO!

♥5:55 PM